Sweet Home Manitoba

Ok, I'm back...
after a long drive, on a little bit of sleep... I arrived home 45 mins before my work shift started, talk about cutting a close one, eh?
On my long drive home, I listened to a LOT of music... and seeing as how I've posted almost ONLY music lyrics on here... I thought I'd stay true to form...
This song, I had heard it before... but I felt that God really sent it just for me...
It's You Are Loved (Don't Give Up), by Josh Groban...
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

Wow, eh? As I listened to that song, driving down the TransCanada Highway, all I could think about is that God loves me... I AM LOVED. And so are you!!

just so you know...

I'm in Regina... safe and sound... with SUE!!!!

I have some pictures from the drive.... and I'm sure I'll post them all when I get home (Sunday)
But for now I will leave you in suspense....

Just so you know...
I AM SO HAPPY TO BE HERE!!!!

Take care y'all and I'll talk to you again soon...

Banana for Jesus.... Part 2

OK, well, I'm sure some of you are going to be reading this post and be like... "is that really a picture of a banana??" YES it is... and there is a REALLY good reason why it is included in this blog...

This past spring (May 2006) I went through a really horrible break up, my fiance of 6 months dumped me 5 months before our wedding date. So I was really torn up and upset. So I finished my school term and left to work at a Christian Family camp for the summer.

While I was at the camp, I was surrounded by awesome teaching, new and old friends, and TONNES AND TONNES OF PRAYER! I couldn't have asked for a better place to be to receive healing for my heart, and soul.

Anyway, the banana... how does this enter into this all...

Well, one morning during staff meeting, one of the ladies that was working there suggested that instead of having a formal staff meeting, we should just soak in the presence of God. I had done this previous times in my life, so I laid back in the couch I was sitting on and just opened up my heart to the Lord, and of course, I started to cry....

and cry,

and cry,

and cry,

then I stopped crying and He showed me a picture of a banana... and I thought to myself, "why is God showing me a banana?? It must not be God...." so I started to think to myself why I was thinking so intently on a banana... I wasn't hungry, I wasn't smelling bananas, I couldn't figure out why I was seeing this clear picture of banana...

So I prayed, and I asked God that if He was giving me this picture that He would clarify it to me.

and I waited

and waited

NOTHING

just nothing

I could feel God was in the room, but with this whole banana thing, NOTHING

so the staff meeting ended and I went to my kitchen and started baking... forgetting about the banana picture.

THE NEXT DAY...

again in staff meeting, we were having a time of prayer, and again, I started thinking about this banana...

so again, I asked God to clarify it for me.

and as I sat there waiting for an explanation, the picture changed, the banana was starting to be peeled...

So I said, " ok God, I'm thinking this whole banana thing is from You... so can You please explain it further..."

Then He said to my heart "You are the banana.... but the hard, bitter peel, that is NOT a part of you, I want to remove all the bitterness and hurt and hard shell from you, I want to reveal the sweet fruit that is inside of you."

I started laughing - out loud...

so, I'm a banana for Jesus...

I wouldn't want to be any other fruit for anybody else...

TONIGHT

I was driving home from the city with some friends, and I saw a Telus billboard, it said "Feel Like the Top Banana" haha

How perfect...

not only am I a banana, but I am the TOP banana... that's how JESUS sees ME!!

Be blessed.

sleepless nights and song titles

Last night, I couldn't sleep...
So I did what I normally do when I can't sleep...
I lay there, tossing and turning, and then eventually I pray and grab my MP3 player...
Well last night, the song that came on my MP3 player was not one that I was very familiar with, I knew the title, I knew the artist... but beyond that, I hadn't really listened to the song... The song was by Superchick and is called "Beauty from Pain"...
I liked the title so much when I first heard it, that I retitled my blog to use it instead...
But as I lay there in my bed, and listened, really listened to the words, I realized that this song is my story... Not everyday, but some days... it's getting better, so it's not every day... but last night was one of those "some days"...
Anyway, I don't know what you're going through right now.... but I thought I'd put the words up here, so you can read them... God bless!

"Beauty From Pain"
by Superchick

the lights go out all around me
one last candle to keep out the night
and then the darkness surrounds me
i know i'm alive but i feel like i've died
and all that's left is to accept that it's over
my dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
i try to keep warm but i just grow colder
i feel like i'm slipping away

after all this has passed, i still will remain
after i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
though it won't be today,
someday i'll hope again
and there'll be beauty from pain
YOU will bring beauty from my pain

my whole world is the pain inside me
the best i can do is just get through the day
when life before is only a memory
i'll wonder why GOD lets me walk through this place
and though i can't understand why this happened
i know that i will when i look back someday
and see how YOU've brought beauty from ashes
and made me as gold purified through these flames

after all this has passed, i still will remain
after i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
though it won't be today,
someday i'll hope again
and there'll be beauty from pain
YOU will bring beauty from my pain

here i am, at the end of me
tryin to hold to what i can't see
i forgot how to hope
this night's been so long
i cling to YOUR promise
there will be a dawn

after all this has passed, i still will remain
after i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
though it won't be today,
someday i'll hope again
and there'll be beauty from pain
YOU will bring beauty from my pain

yeah... here's one for you...

Well, I got tagged!! My friend, Erin, tagged me with this Meme that she had done...
Looks like this could get interesting...

I'm eating a leftover hamburger (w/ mayo, on wheat bread) and sautéd zucchini as I type this. What did YOU eat last? Well, my mom isn't feeling too well, so I was on my own for dinner. I made egg rolls. They were yummy...

I am totally head-over-heels for a very tall man named James, who has a very sexy new haircut (picked out by me, of course! lol) What about YOUR love life? Anyone special? Love life?? haha, not yet... LOL.. well, er, maybe... but there may be a prospect or two... LOL... I'll just keep it to myself for now.

I live in a little house, with lots of trees, on a dead-end street. What is it like where you live? I live on the second floor in an apartment with my mom, there are evergreens out front, and a credit union parking lot in the back. It's a quiet street... but good.


I love my hair, and my cute wittle nose. What are YOUR favourite features about yourself? I like my hair (most days) and I like my smile... I have a square smile... I like that... lol. I love my laugh too... and I love TO laugh...

Today, I pondered about the need for mentoring in young women's lives. What deep thoughts have YOU been pondering upon? Hmmm, that's an interesting question... Lately I've been pondering the thoughts of love in life. If I will fall in love, if I WANT to fall in love, etc, etc, etc...

I love cheese (cubed colby & monterey jack) and green growing things! List 2 random things you love about life. 2 random things... hmm, let's see... I LOVE sunrises and sunsets... they are true demonstrations of God's power and love, secondly: I love sitting on the dock at the lake and just listening to the waves...

I found CAC (Create a Connection) through Melba, who I found through A Mindful Life, which I stumbled on by doing a random search for Buddhist blogs, for no apparent reason! How did YOU find out about CAC? Don't have a clue what Create a Connection is.

I absolutely *heart* thunderstorms! What do YOU love most about spring? Spring? Is there actually something to love about spring?? To me, spring is the torture that teases us about summer... I'd rather just have summer all year long... but that's just me...

ok... so... Mel, Steph, Ruth, and anyone else who reads this, consider yourself TAGGED! so go ahead... answer the questions... LOL

speechless

That's right...
it has finally come to this...
I have NOTHING to blog about... LOL

So yeah... I'm just sitting here, thinking about my life...
How monotonous and routine it is...

So yeah...
( I think I say that too much) lol
does anyone have anything to ask?
or tag me?? I'll answer a survey...

Whatever.
I just hope you are all doing well.

God bless!